With a computer

This'll be my first post in a long while that's posted from a computer. I'm so lazy.

February is over, and that's always a bonus. Next weekend our clocks go ahead an hour, which means sunsets will be at 7:15, instead of 6:15. That's very encouraging. It'll start the slow recovery form what I like to call Buffalo Winteritis. It's the inflammation of the winters, without a doubt. Pretty much ,the winters here make me ache and whine and everything looks gray. I'm looking forward to spring, very very much.

There haven't been any new developments. I've been so bogged down with homework that tonight I offered myself a break - if I agreed to work tomorrow. Apparently, I wasn't okay with that, because I just can't seem to relax.

I had a dream about my Grandma the other night, actually the night that Mr. Manette died, and I think that was Wednesday. There's no weird coincidence there, that's just how I remember the day. It was the dream where she was crossing the front lawn and I didn't want her to go. Even now, I didn't want her to go. I never really knew how disoriented I would be without her. I think this is my first mention of her since she was alive and I miss her very much.

So I guess this entry has developed a theme. Life is either waiting for things to pass, or wishing other things hadn't happened. I'm never in the present.

Speaking of the past, I've been writing quite a bit lately, though nothing worth sharing. The good old phrase of "it's the thought that counts" applies here: it's the effort that counts. I've been debating whether or not I should start the housedreams piece.

I also picked up a shift at work tonight, as it dawned on me earlier - I'm financially screwed for Spain. More negativity later I suppose.

Always the very best.